My whole world is falling apart…
I just realized that I’ll (probably) NEVER be able to live the life I’m dreaming of…
It just won’t happen.
Even if I were as thin as I want to be and even if I were pretty and even if I weren’t such a PSYCHO…
It starts with something simple. I just don’t live in the “right” country to make it happen. I just don’t know the right people to make it happen.
It hurts so bad when you see, that your fanasy of a “perfect life” is never going to come true.
I’d like to kill myself, because everything I’ve been living for… Well, my world just caved in…
A part of me wants to talk about it, but “they” wouldn’t understand anyway… But how could they, if I don’t even understand myself…
Existing just doesn’t make sense for me anymore…
I feel so empty, but full of pain at the same time…
And I know that my family will ask me “What’s wrong? What’s the problem?” and all I could say would be “I am wrong. I am the problem.”
Because my fantasy COULD happen, if I were different!!!
Sorry for the rant…
For every kilo lost I get to add a bracelet to my wrist. When I reach my goal weight my little arm will be covered in them
I really can’t do the ABC diet. I’m gonna up my intake to 800 for February and than try again. Maybe 700, 800 sounds so big.
*sigh* same problem here!
Good ED movies anyone??
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I love watching ED movies, but not documentaries. My fave ones are a secret between friends and the secret life of Mary Margaret, so if you guys know anything similar I’d love it!
Everything I’ve watched so far has been a documentary, and no offense I find them kinda boring.
Do you girls have any good ED movies for me?? Thankssss :D
Try these: “For The Love Of Nancy” or “Sharing The Secret”…
Just imagine what it would be like to wake up in the morning, perfectly empty, resting your hands on your stomach, which is caving in, tracing the outline of your hipbones, your ribs, your collarbones. The soft autumn light shining through the window, you stand up, and you feel a bit lightheaded - but that’s ok. You make yourself some fresh coffee, black, no milk, no sugar. You curl up with the news, a good book, or the laptop, and sip your hot coffee, slowly waking up. You take a hot shower, and you are not disgusted by what you see. You style your hair, moisturise, the whole lot, put on cute underwear, do your make up, grab cute, tiny clothing and don’t worry about “looking bad” because you will look fantastic, even if you wear a shapeless jumper. Just imagine how fantastic that would be, how liberating. There is only one thing you need to do: don’t eat that.
72) I hate looking at myself in the mirror, and I hate the way i look.
68) I hate every part of my body
64) I have wanted to kill myself for a long time but, I didn’t want to die fat.
